A to Z Blogging Challenge: Losing My Motivation

A to Z Blogging Challenge: L

I write parody songs. I have quite a few in my wheelhouse, in fact. Today, since I am still lacking the motivation to write anything truly useful, I thought I’d at least spawn an Ear Worm.

Ohhh, to write is bigger
It’s bigger than myself
And it’s not easy
To show and to not tell it
And I want to cry
Oh no, I’ve failed too much
Have I failed enough?

That’s me with the laptop
That’s me on the internet
Losing motivation
Trying to keep my plot intact
And I don’t know if I can do it
Oh no, I’ve played too much
I haven’t played enough.

I thought I could write forever
I thought I could write bestsellers
I thought my words could make men cry.

Every chapter
Of every single scene I’m
Losing my conviction
That this is something I can do
Like the words have all fled my soul
Oh no, I said too much
I failed to set it up.

Rewording this
Rewording this
The novel is writing me
Rewording this
This book has
Brought me to my knees
What if all my fantasies aren’t
Good to go around?
Now I’ve cut too much.

I’d rather be somewhere reading
I’d rather go try to clean
I’d rather give up both my eyes.

I think I’m gonna scream
This writing makes me scream.

That’s me with the laptop
That’s me on the internet
Losing motivation
Trying to keep my plot intact
And I don’t know if I can do it
Oh no, I wrote too much
I didn’t write enough.

I thought I could write forever
I thought I could write bestsellers
I thought my words could make men cry.

I think I’m gonna scream
Whine, cry, sigh, scream
I think I’m gonna nap
Just go dream, just go dream.
Dream.

 

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