Yesterday was the first time since April started that I wrote no words. Zero. Zilch. Zip. Less than one.
This is okay.
I’ve been pretty hardcore about getting in my one poem a day and not missing any days of the blogging challenge. Yesterday, I missed my poem, but I’m pretty sure no one else will miss my attempt at a Petrarchian sonnet.
On Friday, I had an event that challenged me to move 5k (walk/run) and write 5k. I got the words in, but it was a hectic day and I abused my eyes. I also did it on four hours of sleep.
On Saturday, I got to play host and I was a guest at a thirteen-hour online event. On three hours of sleep. I took one 30-minute nap, one 15-minute Starbucks run, and a quick dash to the mailbox. Beyond that, I was in front of a computer all day.
Last night I tried to get a book cover finished, do a social media graphic, and write up a short story before I got to my poem for the day. I didn’t finish. By the time I got through my social media graphic, my eyes were burning and I was seeing in double-3D (I don’t know any better way to describe it). I was done.
I have to get my words in today– after all, I am a professional writer. That brings me to the hard choice:
I’m going to be retiring as a professional writer, at least until I figure out how to work with macular degeneration.
Don’t get me wrong; I’ll still write. In fact, maybe I’ll write more, since I won’t be spending time on book covers, editing, formatting, and marketing. I just don’t think I should put out sub-par work and I can’t afford to pay someone to do the quality of work I would do myself. Not right now.
So… Beta Beware is the last novel I have slated for publication in a year when I was shooting for six books. And I’m okay with that.
It all comes down to priorities. Priorities are the difference between the wannabe writer who never finishes anything (I just don’t have the time) and the prolific writer who puts out books on a regular basis. Priorities are also the difference between an ex-writer (I need to save my eyes) and the prolific writer who puts out books on a regular basis. In none of these options are the priorities bad. The priorities just determine what gets done and what doesn’t.
I’ll still write. I’ll always write. I just can’t put out quality right now, so I won’t publish. Again, priorities.
What are your writing priorities? Have you ever sat down and written them out?